Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Pulling Up Roots

There have been a lot of things on my mind as of late, of course one would think that I'd take a few moments here and there to write about them.  Of course then, one would be wrong. As with many things in my life, these thoughts come and go, the ones that tend to stick around often get jotted down in my journal, or on a random scrap of paper here and there until something comes of it. The idea of pulling up my roots has been one of these ideas that has been in for forefront of my mind the last few weeks. I have lived most of my life in NJ, actually the majority of my life has been lived within 10 miles of where I grew up, though I've moved plenty of times.  I've said for a very long time that I want out of NJ, for good, and while this hasn't changed, I'm almost feeling a little sad about the possibility of it.  Rich and I are making the big move in the fall to moving in together! Yes this is huge news for me, after the 6 years with Craig debacle, and living alone for almost 8 years now, moving in with someone and sharing my space is pretty flippin' big. With that being said, we're moving out of the area that I've lived in for most of my life.  We'll still be in NJ for the time being, but will be about an hour or so north of where I'm used to. For the first time, I'm beginning to feel like I won't have a "home" to go back to once I branch out into the rest of this big world.  Since I've been back in NJ most of my best friends have moved out of the state, my family is either moved away or passed away, except for my mother, but I haven't had contact with her for close to 15 years, but that in itself is a story for another day. So I would aside from friends have no "people" to come back here to. Living in a new place, I will have to start fresh, in some ways this is a good thing, but in others, I'm going to have to find new places and things. I'll have to find where the nearest big box stores are, yarn shops, movie theaters, where I can get the best pizza in town.  I'm sure you'll agree, all very important points to contemplate!