Saturday, February 28, 2009

Have You Ever?

Had one singular defining moment that changed your views and attitude and feelings about a person forever? I had that moment come yesterday. I found out that the 6 years I spent with Craig was essentially a big lie. Don't really want to get into it now, because everything is still so raw. I haven't had time to really think about it, just react, and lash out like an angry teenager. And I did just that, letting go of 6 years of handling him with kid gloves and letting everything out, saying things to him I never thought I would. But what's done is done, and now I can move on without wondering, or caring for that mater, about his future welfare. I might revisit this post at some time in the future, when I've had sometime to think about everything, then again I might not. I can say this much though, every single miserable day I spent with him, has made me appreciate Rich soooo much more. Even though there are some things Rich and I agree to disagree on, he really is wonderful, and I'm so thankful to have him in my life.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

So Very Much Going On

I have much blogging to catch up with! Last weekend was Valentine's Day, My first V-day with the Boy :o) And it was in one word SPECTACULAR! He came here Friday after work and spent the weekend. Saturday morning I got up early and made him breakfast for a change, including heart shaped toast :o) I had started to feel a bit unwell, so I napped a bit in the early afternoon, while I was asleep, I had the most beautiful bouquet of roses delivered.

And a surprise, The Boy wrote me a lovely poem about our 3 months together, and wanted to put it inside a chocolate heart, except they didn't have a mold for that at work, so I got a Valentine's Egg with my poem tucked inside.

We went to see Coraline in 3-D and it was just fabulous! Then went to dinner at The Pufferbelly. As we walked out of the theater it had started to snow, big lofty, beautiful, fat, glistening snowflakes. It felt almost magical.

Unfortunately I ended up coming down with some sort of horrid cold that sidetracked me for the rest of the week, but I'm finally feeling better now. I'm crediting Rich with my feeling better, he surprised me again last night. He came by after work and brought me a get well package with soup and lots of other goodies. He might be the best boyfriend ever :o) Sometimes I feel like I missed out on so much when I was in my last relationship, but, then I think that it makes me appreciate Rich all that much more.

Lastly, I have some new goodies in the shop. Please take a look. I'm hoping to have more ideas to work on this week! Oh also my work schedule should be getting back to normal soon, so I'll have more time to work on items for the shop. I can't wait!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Sort of Dissapointed With Myself

Earlier in the month, ok last month, I had these grandiose plans for things that i wanted to accomplish. Make some winter things, and some Valentine goodies for the shop, finish de-cluttering and reorganizing my apartment, finish fixing things up the way that I want them to be, etc. Now some of this takes extra money that i don't happen to have at the moment, and that's ok, those go on the long term goal list. But the other things are what's really getting to me.. I have had no energy or focus to concentrate on the things I really need/want to do, and have been wasting a ton of time getting lost in either trying to catch up on sleep, watching endless hours of dribble on TV, etc. My sleep schedule is and always has been horrible, I'm a night owl by nature and I feel like between that and my work schedule, something is catching up with me. I can't seem to make it on 5 hours of sleep anymore the way I used to. So I've started working on getting my sleep paterns back to normal, so that I'm getting at least 7 hours of sleep a night, Valerian root, as stinky as you are, you're my friend. I'm hoping that between regulating my sleeping, and things getting sorted out and back to normal at work, I'll soon be able to really be back on track with everything that I'm wanting to do!

Monday, February 2, 2009

Another One Bites the Dust

Another weekend that is, flew by without my managing to get done what I'd set out to. I had big plans for these last few days off, was going to get things tidied up and work on some projects for the shop. Well 2 migraines later, and the Boy showing up a day before I expected him, sort of threw a kink in my plans. I don't know why, but i was very fussy this weekend, and everything was getting on my last mother lovin' nerve. So now that it's Monday, and things are somewhat back in order I'm hoping that feeling goes away, and that I can actually get some things done tonight when I get home.